I honestly don’t have an idea about where to start writing again. I just felt the urge to just start. I debated on starting a whole new blog because so much of my life has changed since I last wrote anything! But I just don’t want to go through all of that because I know that would just postpone actually writing.
I believe my last post was in 2018 and it’s half way through 2020 (and boy what a year it has been)… is it 2021 yet? I am now a mom to 3 beautiful girls. I still can’t believe I am a mom to 3 kiddos let alone 3 GIRLS! I love…. actually, adore being a girl mom! I wholeheartedly believe I was made to be a girl mom. My day is full of pink and purple sparkly clothes, princess crowns, and fairy wings, and glitter. I love it! My youngest is 9 months old and she is lively and loves her momma! She is basically another layer of skin because if I put her down or even turn my head she thinks I’m never returning and will lose her mind.
If anyone reading this is debating on having a third…. DO IT! I swear I’m a better mom with her. I’m more patient, I’m more forgiving of myself of the rough days, I’m more laid back. I also enjoy so many more minutes since I’m not as anxious about every little thing. I have rocked her to sleep every.single.night for 9 months and up until about 2 weeks ago I slept with her right beside me. I believe I’m done having babies so I have made sure I enjoy every single moment of her life. She is most certainly the baby of the family.
My middle child is WILD. She is FEARLESS. She gives me a heart attack daily. She is so full of life and her smile just brightens up a room. She can make you laugh until you cry! I cannot believe she is 3. When facebook reminds me of her baby days I honestly want to cry because it seems like it was just yesterday. She’s growing so fast!
My oldest, the one that made me a mommy is developing into a young little lady. She is now 6… in 1st grade… and even lost her 1st tooth. I cannot believe I can no longer count on 1 hand how old she is. She absolutely adores her baby sisters (maybe a little too much sometimes). She doesn’t quite know the term gentle, but she loves them regardless. She is so inquisitive of the world. She loves to read and can read independently way above her age. She has a love of learning that I hope she keeps the rest of her life.
I believe it was in May that we unfortunately lost our beloved Golden Retriever suddenly. This past January she started having seizures out of no where and was having about 1 a month. One night in May she had 4 in a span of 2 hours. We made the tough decision to have her put down and it has crushed our family. I’m thankful this was in the middle of the night and my girls did not witness anything. having to tell them though when they woke up that Sadie was now in heaven was so incredibly hard. My husband and I cried all night about it. She was such a special dog that I would give anything to have back. My middle daughter took her passing away the hardest, and also doesn’t quite understand that she isn’t coming back. Sometimes she will make comments “when Sadie comes back…” and we have to explain that she can’t come back. She’ll look at the sky and ask if the people in the airplanes can see Sadie in heaven and will wave to her. When it thunders outside she’ll ask if Sadie is okay (Sadie was afraid of storms). My heart breaks for her. She is my animal lover and I’m sure throughout her childhood she’ll bring home random ‘pets’ that I will not allow her to keep.
My husband hated seeing her so sad so we did welcome a 9 month old F1B Goldendoodle, Maple into our family and she is quite literally the calmest puppy I’ve ever seen. She is so sweet and just loves to be right next to us. She’ll fit right in with us. I would love to have Sadie back but I know Maple will be with my girls as they are growing up.
Anyways, I’m not sure what I plan to use this page for other than just documenting moments in our lives that I want to be able to look back on and relive. This is our 2nd year homeschooling and I couldn’t be more excited to start back up; especially, with my 3 year old being in preschool and joining us more and more!
Hopefully, I have another chance to write again before 2021. 🙂