Have you ever found yourself so frustrated with someone and you know you should/need to just let it go, but you don’t? I’m so there.
Whom am I frustrated with you ask? Well my husband. I hate that I’m still frustrated. I think I just get more frustrated with myself for being frustrated. Have I lost you yet? ha
Saturday my husband went fishing; as he normally does as he is a tournament fisherman. I know more about fishing than I ever thought I would… I always assumed it was just about luck… silly me. This wasn’t really what I found frustrating; although sometimes I wish I could get him to slow down and spend more time with our daughter on the weekends because he works so much during the week, but it was the fact he was up at 430am. One thing about my husband you should know to fully understand me is he doesn’t do anything quietly. I laid in bed praying that our daughter is by chance in such a sound sleep she doesn’t wake up. My prayers were kind of answered she woke up just after 600am (1.5 hours earlier than normal). UGH so now I’m really up and he’s about to leave. great timing right?!?! So now I’m a little frustrated. and tired.
My daughter must have felt that naps were overrated because she only for about 2.5 hours all day. Her naps were like 20-30 minutes each. This has been going on for a few days now and I’m not sure why she’s doing this. She wasn’t too cranky from not napping but I could tell she was tired. I tried to put her down when she showed signs of being tired. I tried leaving her in her crib so that she could wear herself out. nothing has worked. This mommy has gotten used to her down time every so often while she napped. I wouldn’t say this frustrated me but it sure didn’t help me relax or get down time.
When my husband got home at 400p he wondered what was for dinner. He clearly never heard you don’t walk in the house and immediately ask ‘what’s for dinner’. Well I didn’t cook anything because when I asked him on Friday when he would be home from fishing he said it starts to get dark around 7p so I didn’t expect him home. I also knew he had plans with some co workers to go to a bar in town for some drinks so I didn’t plan on dinner. This all brings me to the next thing that was frustrating; he was going out again and when my husband says he is going to get a drink it never means one. I wasn’t frustrated because I wish I was the one going out ; I much prefer to be home I just wish 1). he would want to be home more 2). I knew when he pulled into the driveway whenever he got home the dogs would bark and guess who would wake up. He got home around 1am and luckily the dogs didn’t wake up the baby. Thank goodness. Still frustrated though.
Today I’ve just been ho hum with him and I just don’t know why. It’s almost like I’m too proud to just let it go. I’ve been snippy with him and I hate being that way. It reminds me of a quote from a book series I’ve read: “I am amazed by how many individuals mess up every new day with yesterday.” –Gary Chapman. Maybe I should read these books again.
When I see this though I just can’t help but stop and think how much I love them both.
Sometimes I just have to step back and realize my husband is not me and can’t read my mind. Since becoming parents we need to remember to communicate better. Not just the facts but our thoughts, feelings, and maybe most importantly to us our needs. Here’s another good one to remember: “People tend to criticize their spouse most loudly in the area where they themselves have the deepest emotional need.” –Gary Chapman. Sharing our needs is definitely the hardest things for us to do too. practice makes perfect, right?!?!